Jestem Sirenka

Nice song for a nice mermaid

Dear Captain!

A night with the Captain Morgan brought the good old memories of a snowing day in London....

Ahhhh... Dear Captain, you made me fall in love, and felt loved.

Happy birthday Marcelle

I'm still alive.

Feel like shit, but alive.

I don't have the flu.

I don't work.

I study, well I go to university and I try to do my work.

I got my fringe back.

I finished the Wodka Zoladkowa Gorzka... What a shame.

I almost forgot how to speak english.

I love Montreal but

I miss too many things.

I am weirdly confused/confusing

Me me me me me me me me me me

Mimi fait pipi en Croatie esti

Don't ask me why but so many weird people found this video. They don't understand a thing, but they like it. I got a mail through youtube, from a guy asking me for more "peeing videos"... That's awkward.

Can you imagine, this silly video, in french! has almost 1500 3000 views! People are crazy and weird.

And I am now famous on youtube! Youloulou!

This time is over now. Internet is back with all its happiness!

It's fan-tas-tic! :)

Time, goes by, so slowly...

I am alive.

I survive.

Slowly I am making my way in the society.

Slowly I am building my new routine.

However, I still feel like I am desperately waiting for something more.

PS. I have no regrets to use a song of Madonna instead of Michael J. He wasn't happy, he wasn't bringing anything to music, he wasn't becoming more handsome... His life was going down and down and down... Can I say it was the best thing it could happen to him?

I couldn't wait to see friends and family.  I couldn't wait to speak and hear french-canadian everywhere around me. I couldn't wait to turn on the radio or the tv and hear my language spoken by artists I know and I grew with. I couldn't wait to be fed by my mom. I couldn't wait to drive my dad's car. I couldn't wait to drink a pitcher of Molson with friends. I couldn't wait for a poutine at 4am. I could keep going like that for hours.

Now I have all that, I am not happier. 

Marta told me: I feel like you are the only one that could really understand me.

I feel the same for her.

I love my friends, but I became so close of that polish freak ;) It's like no one can understand me really. No, in fact it's more because she was the only person in my life I could give a phone call anytime and meet her 10 minutes later for a drink and a chat.  I feel deeply empty without her. 

I left 2 very important people behind me. That's too many. 

I believed in friendship for ever, even if you are far away from your friend, but love seamed to be impossible. So in two months I did my possible to proved it to myself. I met my lover again and realized I was terribly wrong. It took me about a week to first be able to turn the page. Now it's almost a month and I am far to be ale to do it again. I wont make the same mistake, that's for sure. 

Our ordeal strengthens our love, which makes it even harder to live with. 

Some says girls are complicated. I thinks it's only because we talk about these things. I used to keep it for my self, but it feels so much better to express it.  

I feel empty and stuck. 

Long life to Skype